why does life treat me so bad?
everyday im always so sad,
i regret everthing i said,
why cant i move on?
why cant my heart just give up?
why wont the pain go away?
im only 14
life is not supposed to be this way!
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i WoNdeR WhaT'S ThE PoiNt oF LiViN?
My FrieNds TeLL Me iT'S ThE WaY oF LiFe
WeLL WhAt iF uR FoRgeTTiN
HoW ThE HeCk ArE u SuPPoSe To UsE a KniFe?
i WoNdEr EaCh Day
iS iT a ReASoN To STaY?
iS ThEre N E OnE WhO CaRes?
i'LL AtLeaSt GeT 1 EmaiL
So WhaT'S ThE PoiNt oF LiViNg?

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Paybacks a Bitch
If I could go back and change everything, I wouldn't.
Even if I knew everything I wouldn't forget anything.
I could wish and dream but what would that do?
Maybe if you weren't you and I wasn't me.
But then again your you and I'm me,
And thats the way it'll always be.
your sweet and predictable.i'm charming and daring,
You're looking for friends with priveleges,
And I'm looking for something more.
You hurt me, but that was always the plan.
You played with me as much as you could,
And when I got old you you dropped me as if I was nothing.
Now there's someone new, and it's all good.
Maybe she'll be more or do more,
But always remember you'll never have better then me.
One day you may want to get back together.
Whether it's for real or just to play me again, I don't know.
I may say yes, but don't think things will be the same.
You made the rules and I'll just play the game.
Fair is fair so be careful how you play,
Cause from what I've heard paybacks a bitch.
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I loved you.
I needed you.
I would have given up my life for you.
I would have run away in the middle of the night if you asked me too.
Never in a million years did I think you’d leave me the way you did.
You don’t know how bad it hurts.
Tears well up in my eyes but I don’t cry.
I’m stronger than that.
I always thought we’d make it.
We’d be the lucky ones to end up in that faerie tale of love.
I thought what we had would make us different.
I thought our love was real.
But I thought wrong.
If I had known that was the last time I would get to
say that I loved you, I would have said more.
I would have said everything that is in my heart.
I would have said that things you didn’t already know.
People say that love blinds you.
Well it blinded me from all you’re faults.
It blinded me from your persona.
People told me that we wouldn’t last.
But I didn’t believe them.
I still don’t know why.
But I guess I never will
Someday you’ll want to come back
But I won’t let you.
This was your last chance and you blew it.
I love you hun, but I guess you don’t feel the same.
So I'll sit by my window fighting back the tears Heart Broken.
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Letting go for all it's worth
Letting go of what we used to have
Letting go to get some respect from you
I can't let go...but I want to.
My heart fades into nothing as my hands grip tighter and tighter around your wrist.I see the pain your eyes as tears start to develope.
You cry out and beg me to let go.I can't.The more you cry and beg the tighter I hold on.
"why can't you let go?" you ask,I shrug as tears roll down my face and drip onto the floor.
People tell me to let go.Let you go.But I can't.I want to grab them to.I cry.I don't know why.I don't know why I hold on to you so tightly.I guess I fear that letting go might make something bad happen.
Letting go for all it's worth.
Letting go of what we used to have.
Letting go to get some respect from you.
My hands drop at my side.Red.You grab your wrist.People bandage it.I fall to my knees.I cry.I know why I cry now.I cry because I've let go.I've let go of you.I look up.You start to fade.I reach for you but you shake your head and completely fade away......

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At first it seemed so perfect
Like it would never end
Then a few months later
sHe's back to being a friend.

I always felt such pain
Whenever we were apart
And then one day she let me go
And left me with a broken heart.

I just lay here all alone
Thinking about our past
And all the reasons why
It had to end so fast.

I even miss the little things
Like her kissing me
But now that it's over
I only have the memory.
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I've always had a feeling
That she would break my heart
But I finally gave in
Now it's tearing me apart
I feel like I'm alone
And still I wonder why
As I wait her to call
I softly begin to cry
I don't understand
Why she's doing this to me
Should I just give up ?

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At this moment I'm thinking
At this moment I'm sad
Thinkin bout times we shared
and times we had
The walks we walked now seem
so sad, so lonely, and so
apart
The times we talked now
seem so quiet and yet